Unthreatened

Unthreatened

Today I cried

I cried at the perversion of my دين

I cried at the tarnishing of اسلام

At the taboo of the word religion

And the scoffs at the word God

I cried for the degradation of my faith

And the disappearance of unity

I cried because it feels like there are so few of us

So few of us left who can see the beauty

And it hurts like physical pain when others don’t understand

Or when respect is nonexistent

Today I cried at the ignorance in the world

And how so many people can’t step out of their own shoes for even a second

To see how a different way of life other than theirs could exist

Or how it’s possible that what is the absolute truth for them doesn’t have to be the absolute truth for everyone

Today I cried because I missed الله

And then I cried again when I realized he is always with me, only I was the one who forgot

I cried at the tug of my إيمان

And because Allah is closer to me than the jugular

I cried when I realized that he has the power

And it is empowering to know that nothing happens without his knowledge

He says كن فيكون

I cried at the relief I felt in my روح

because of how I didn’t feel lost, rather I felt a sense of purpose

I felt nourished instead of empty

I cried because I felt found

And the جاهلة that surrounds me

No longer felt threatening because I know

“يعيشون عيشة ضنكا”

 

دين: religion

اسلام: Islam

الله: Allah

إيمان: faith

كن فيكون: Be, and it is

روح: soul

جاهلة: ignorance

يعيشون عيشة ضنكا: .They live a life of wandering and dissatisfaction